it's a new year already, time fliessss, like anything. this period of time last year, i was rotting away and looking for job and just, enjoying the end of As. and of course, praying for my results.

i just want to thank God for bringing me through this year, God never fails. this is what i truly learnt this year. He gave me reasonably good results, even though i dont deserve it, for both As and first sem, and gave me a place in fass. He brought me through the random peaks of financial dips at home, and blessed me so much during december, i was touched beyond words. thankyou Lord.

this year passed soo fast, i cant remember the things that happened. during watchnight last night, we were asked to recall our best meal and the funniest thing that happened to us this year. i didnt seem to have any. hmmm, haha. maybe not much significant things happened, that's why, maybe.

the first half of this year, i spent it with children. and i remember writing this in april.

constance may not agree with this haha. but now after reading it and recalling the times spent at little school house, i still dont disagree with it. and it's through these little random things that you learn the joys of life, and i thank God for giving me that job, and for teaching me those little things. living life as a child isnt that bad sometimes. childlike faith, you know. if only the world wasnt so complicated.

the second half of the year, was just some time spent catching up with friends before school started, and really, no life when school started. i drifted from many when school started, because of my lousy timetable, okay my lousy planning skills haha and moving arts.

i've come to realise, in uni, it's hard to have close friends. okay one or two, maybe, but not much. you meet many different people in uni, and yeah one of my regret was losing that friendship. but i guess, it's okay. i dont know. uni is quite like a place where you have to survive alone, i dont even know most of my tutorial mates' names. thank God for arts camp and oweek friends(: they are why i pulled through first sem. thankyou people, people like darren, sixian, suyee, yuhan, kelvin, weehung(:

i've been dancing alot for the second half of the year, and yeah, i've learnt that really, dont be too proud of yourself. dancing for so many years doesnt make me a good dancer, and i've learnt quite alot in moving arts. technique wise, definitely. and dancers cant be lazy, you will never learn anything. perseverance for another, and really, not to be put down but criticism but rise up because of them. and yes, thank God for scholars, i wouldnt have made it through first sem without them(: i think they are one group i spent quite alot of time with for the whole second half of the year, i see them twice a week haha.

of course, not forgetting, dear bai. i dont know what's wrong with me, i've been rather mean to her these few days, im sorry bai): but yes, i wouldnt have survived the whole year, without her. i thank God for sending her to me, and that we've became soooo much closer in the past year. she's like another of me, we think almost the same, and have almost same responses, and i hate to say this, but we're equally retarded. HAHA. anyway, yes i thank God for her, because she understands every single problem i have, and never fail to be there, trying to cheer me up with her retarded words. yes, i enjoy every single outing we have, last minute or not, and every single thing we do. thanks bai for everything and for just, being there(:

and in the reflection post i did up last year, i mentioned a particular friendship. i thank God, for helping me to let go with respect to this person, and this friendship, i guess, is slowly building up again, step by step. even though things are really different from what it used to be, i still thank God that there is hope for this friendship (:

i thank God for helping me to genuinely let go, like really let go. it's feels, i dont know, nice to be free, in a sense. haha. at least there's a conclusion now. but yeah, i thank God for what i've been through the past two years, because i've learnt so much from it, and i believe, God has His reasons for putting me through it. life lessons, you know. haha.

i've also grown much closer to gf and constance, girlfriend through random outings and constance, meta brought us much closer, and i thank God for it. i look forward to spending much more time with the three girls this year, and i mean much much more. because this year will see mabel going to australia and constance spending i dont know how long in america and us spending a last church camp together, that's if mabel gets accepted in australia, which i think, she probably will. hmmm):

another thing im very grateful to the Lord for is that j has opened up alot in the past year. im really thankful for that, and im very happy that he is much happier now(:

and mr woo, thanks for trying to cheer me up after reading whatever's here even though you always do it like one week late haha. and also, for the food deliveries when i am extremely lazy i really appreciate it okay!

im very glad to have ended my year with meta, very extremely. meta was a totally different experience from the past camps i've had, and i've learnt so much from it. i've never seen so many people so fired up for God, and i want to be like them. i did street e for the first time, we didnt exactly share, but well, it was a good experience nonetheless. i blame myself for the lack of courage, but i know God will provide. i want to go out there and share His word, it's really nice and heartwarming to know and see people get saved, i like(: also, the sharings in meta made me think. if i were to face strong persecution and would have to get killed, would i have a faith strong enough to still say 'yes i believe in Jesus'? i want that answer to be a yes, and i am going to be a good testimony for God, i can, i shall and i will. i must and will learn to rely on God, because Lord, You are more than enough for me. i shall start journalling, because i do not want to forget what i will go through in the next year, both the ups and downs, and i do not want to forget/miss God's work in these ups and downs. in the new year, i want to really, let go, and let God.

watchnight was rather good, the sharing was good.

we do not have to work for God's grace, thank God. because indeed, He is merciful.

and this, is for you.

all of us are special, we are God's masterpieces, and God does not create junk(:

all the best for the new year (: